You know the phrase 'peer pressure'. For a bride-to-be, b2b, once-a-bride...everyone must have gone through this phase if not chronic than, a mild peer pressure.
Being a bride, we want THE BEST that we can get on one of the most happiest moments in our life.There's engagement, akad nikah, reception and bertandang. Some have the experience to all four events, some three or even two. It doesn't matter how many events we have just as long we have the best we can afford.
Allah s.w.t works mysteriously, some are granted with wealthy parents, some make a fortune early in life, some work very hard to earn their wages and some are content with what they have. This are called Rezeki...and yes it can be changed with doa, hardwork and tawakkal.
That alone can be a topic by itself but i'm not writing this entry to preach.
I'm trying to remind myself that even though i want my happy ending... one of the happiest moment in my life to be perfect(read: perfect as in according to what i want, regardless of cost), i must pull myself back down to earth and knock some sense in my head that is to spent within my means and even if i can afford it, i'll (try to) question myself, what worth does it bring to my happiness.
*Voices in my mind i'm trying to hush*
"Yes, the pelamin will look pretty like this...i just gotta add a couple of thousands...."
"Ooooh! The veil is soooo pretty, tambah sikit duit and you gotta have what you always dreamt off (in a veil)"
"Make up pengantin ni pretty sangat Mashallah...i want it i want it!But it's additional 500rm if i want to book the MUA...patut ke? ke tak patut?"
hehehe...there're a lot more i tell ya. i'll prolly bore you with the details or someone might take me as derailed. But yeah, i'm not 100% successful in this, in telling myself i don't need that extra things. I'm taking baby steps...the most important thing is that, i'm trying.
I'm not saying that you can't have that designer dress...shoes....pelamin and all the works. You can, after all, like i said, it's YOUR day(and your money might i add :) This is just a sole reminder to myself.
Come to think of it... maybe i do need the MUA and to change my veil ;p What worth it'll bring me, you say? Shallow as it may sound, i want to look beautiful! Yeah, beauty is from within and all those words. But still. I want them. I guess these voices are more powerful than my will.
We shall see :)
